Whenever you refuse to open, you lose the connection to our deepest self. Your actual self exists in the form of energy. As such its natural state is dynamic, ever evolving. Thus your self never had or will have a fixed shape. Nonetheless everyone’s energy is completely unique. Yours is the essence of your existence, your deepest drives and motivations. And it is, literally, what keeps you alive. Therefore the importance of keeping your energy flowing without hindrance cannot be overstated!

Losing the connection to your self is the biggest conceivable obstruction. Consider this, if the blood flow to one of your organs was blocked, that organ could die and so might you. Now, when we’re talking about obstructing the flow of our life energy, to some degree almost everyone does that. That’s why most of the time we do not really live, we merely exist. But don’t take my word for it, just ask yourself: How often do you feel truly alive? Do you feel like that every day of your life? Because that is what living really means, completely being here and now, wide awake, feeling everything.

Since complete openness is our natural state of mind, getting there should be the easiest thing in the world. Yet that state seems incredibly difficult to maintain. But it is only that difficult because most of the time we do not want to feel everything. We simply do not want to experience the worst moments of our lives as intensely as the most beautiful ones. Thus we close ourselves to some degree almost all the time. And the very few moments we actually open up completely are the ones when we feel truly alive.

To be clear, there is no outside force making you refuse to open up and live. You choose to do so. In cases of serious trauma refusing to feel everything might even be a necessary and healthy choice, in order to make it through the day. For a while anyway. But that is a completely different subject. This is not about that. This is about the little things. Everyday shit we actually can cope with, but still refuse to feel. Because it seems so much easier, right? The problem is, we cannot easily go from openness to non-openness and back. We are just not built that way. Once you are used to closing yourself, it is a long way back to a full and healthy life.

Whether you decide to live to the fullest or not, just remember: It is, always has been and always will be your choice.